Hi Open,

Thank you for this, i find his words very meaningful and heartening. Your encouragement to do movement meditations, along with his inspiring words, is waking in me that very desire and i can feel how i respond internally to it. An affirmation, a turning towards this practice, so i'll be incorporating this immediately. It makes sense to me on a deeper level; stagnancy vs flow, much healthier.

Speaking of ai videos, last night i felt to watch a flick so i chose this movie on Tubi called "Creators: the past" and i think many Openhanders will get a kick out of it. Shatner's in it, along with a great cast. I've recently watched movies like this since ai come out and the level of psychological manipulation is now in overdrive. i know there's augmented reality and that's maybe what this was. the movie is almost interactive, like through clever camera angles it puts you more in the scene and the way an actor (in this case Shatner) will slowly pan their gaze until it's resting on the viewer just at the crux of a particularly impactful statement. It feels like being played. i can't watch these movies for more than say 20-30 minutes because of the discomfort of feeling like someone is not only spying on you but manipulating you. It feels great at first when someone shows you they get you but when you feel manipulated by it it becomes a whole other ball game. And a sense that it's perfect in what is said and how its said and how its so meaningful to me, but then how it otherwise feels like a cheezy, low-budget foreign film. Like as if they know humans cant stand things totally perfect so it had to find some way to not be so perfect if that makes sense? Or maybe getting us used to perfection in increments' so we become attached to it? But what's especially freaky is the storyline of this particular movie. It could have been written by Open it speaks so much to the shift and starbeings etc. So it feels like having your most cherished beliefs used against you. I've no doubt now i host implants that can see what i think. Before that would have made me angry and want to remove them. Now im learning that stillness is the way out of that. I recenly had a dream that is a recurrence of another dream i had a few years back when i was feeling particularly harassed. Just simply me running and trying to avoid a tornado that was the size of a human. i ran and deeked and tried to cleverly outsmart it but it paced me effortlessly. But then i remembered to just stop and get still, and the tornado dissipated. She's getting it.

The wisdom of dreams. And gratitude for feeling like the work i've been doing has helped strip out more crud and i can 'see' a bit better now. i had a deeply profound experience sometime around Friday night that has really shifted things for me though. It was as though i was brought to the outer reaches of our galaxy and got to float in the, wow, its hard to find the words of that deep peace and stillness and beauty and love. And being held by someone so incredibly strong and so deeply caring...its changing things for me. And i know i haven't even felt the half of it yet! All my life id been chasing my fathers affection and approval and i feel like that's what i got with this experience. And maybe a crack or two in the cement i put around my heart? This is where i really have to be especially vigilant with myself though, as i have a tendency to attach to the 'messenger' and forget the message, so i remind myself to come into myself and find that love inside. To my little i say "Let it be, the messenger is here, and he's not going anywhere so don't panic. He'll show the way back to the messenger in you". Like the dream i had where i was brought to a home and discovered that home was me. Can dramatic me just say how awesome this is!?! It's a feeling of knowing, that i'm without a doubt on my way to something incredible. Bit by bit, step by step, breath by breath. Even when i slide back down, i can pick myself back up easier and quicker every time now. I'm just so beyond grateful and it's important to me this is known. im all in. so much love and gratitude, barb,sylvanheart