Hi Open and all.

In trying to work through some deep-seated stuff that I’ve been struggling to fully access, I felt to start writing a poem about it. I’ve never been in touch with my creative side (didn’t really know it was there) but this poured out of me. As I wrote, feelings and insights just kept coming, some of them on a deep soul level.

Identity crisis

Triggers abound to light the fires;

Of conscious awakening and karmic ties.

Melting the ego and tending the rays;

To unleash the soul and clear the haze.

But the healer resides deep down inside;

It seeks to remain; the soul it hides.

The need to control, to advise, to scorn;

An identity of lifetimes, forever a thorn.

A desperate plea from a fragment of soul;

“Release this burden and make me whole”.

But how to tap in to the darkness abound;

As it clings to existence, no longer silent in sound.

Reflections show the healer, the saviour of all;

Come to remove pain, no need to feel it, y’all.

I’ll take it away and hold it tight;

No need to deal with it, I’ll make it all right.

But in return I need something special;

Your undying devotion, and not a bit of it subtle.

Entitlement, oppression, an addiction to power;

Using those ‘talents’ to make others cower.

But a shaft of light in the dark appears;

A reason for being, a purpose it seems.

Fall back and let go the little voice said;

Getting louder and louder every day in my head.

The battle lines drawn, as the war rages on;

The healer identity with nowhere to run.

A surge of emotion as knowing starts to dawn;

It can be released, broken down, gone.

But how to begin, the task monumental;

A sense of ensuring I’m not being judgmental.

With one step forward and two steps back;

It feels sometimes like I’m not on track.

But when darkness ensues and feels all encompassing;

Just sit in the dark, when it feels like you’re struggling.

And one day you’ll discover: it’s lifted, it’s gone;

A soul now unleashed, feeling free, and reborn.

🙏

I look forward to the end of the poem coming to fruition!