Hey there Vimal!

I really enjoyed reading your sharing and recognize aspects of my journey within it as well. I could write a ton about this but will try to be concise =).

Yes, it is really so helpful to see what's behind these energies...I can relate to a yearning for order, harmony and effectiveness. It's so encouraging to see these underlying qualities and inquire within how those might come forward. In a way, it seems this is the underlying movement of the Universe to finer expresssions of harmony. I have seen how I may begin to orchestrate harmony or "best path forward" from a place of control or based on only rational thinking. This came forward really strongly last year when a powerful hurricane was heading for this area. I was so pulled in two directions that I couldn't move and just spun and spun in my mind - churning up panic and a cloud of dust around me. At some point it came to me that I had to just be in the indecision and feel all the fears that were surrounding the inability to move forward. In a moment of exhaustion from all the efforting, I became open to what next step might be given if I stop trying to figure it out and quite rapidly answers came ...through an email from a friend just posing a question that cut through all the dust and I found myself moving forward.

Yes, these high expectations for oneself is one I recognize as well...recently I have been inquiring about all "the shoulds" I subconsciously carry around and the impact of this bag of shoulds...it's become clear to me that rather than questioning all these things I am to be/do/say/achieve, I have instead questioned my value based on my inability to meet these standards. And yes, I imagine this is a huge weight to feel released from Vimal...I too have watched this changing within me, just letting me BE ....such an expression of love. To touch the simplicity and the beauty of that acceptance just as we are AND at the same time continue to unfold more, face the fears, attachments etc. I, like you, am finding great lightness and courage in that.

I love what you shared about the child you are spending time with. What a beautiful mirror you have drawn...and yes, yes, yes, it's powerful to witness the magic of how it's all connected. <3 Thanks so much for your sharing! Jen