I resonate for sure with this, especially the lens.

I came across this lens in a sequence of journeys some time ago  I faced it several times and ended up smashing it. Another world became visible,  did I venture through...no, but I will.

Since that last journey,  after breaking through, the now dead and lifeless lens. I have found myself in and out or out and in. Like a dolphin coming out of the water world and into the air world  which one is the one.

I'm sure you have felt my frustration at this constant flipping of energy.  Especially in recent posts or replies to your writing's. 

Sometimes I feel so close, then blip  I'm now so far.