Hello Openhanders! Its been a while. I want to share my experience of the past few months. Posting in this thread because it feels expanded I think... :-)
The clearing I have been gifted with in my personal life ( divorce, uprooted) has offered me the opportunity to release fear of insecurity, has asked me to trust, to be as a lily of the field. And my own mortality has linked arms with the grief for the desolation of Gaia, echoing the Sirian grief of long ago in my memory. I think many of us are experiencing this. So we might die in this evolutionary spasm! We are no longer afraid. What amazing grace and freedom and eternity lie on the other side of fear.
Dissolving this fear program has been painstaking, holding the light and wave upon wave of fears coming out of the shadows to be held and released -like liberating incarcerated birds. The parasite is dying now. No more lies. We know we are the source of love in our lives.

Recently, I have become aware that there is a deeper program embedded under the body of fear. Alien. It appears to be an emergency program of low self worth, of self loathing to abort the experience of divinity: Maybe freedom didn't kill you like we said it would but you should not immerse in your divinity because you are not worthy. Like a cyanide pill programmed in if you get through to here. In recent nights, whilst sleeping, my brain has been running like a broken TV, searching for a clear channel, static on the screen, this is not me, I do not recognize it, I woke to a male metallic voice repeating on a loop " I hate myself". Chilling. Realising that all the old voices of self sabotage and judgement dressed up as me were never me at all. A Wizard of Oz matrix moment. No hollow sham gonna get me no more.
I am source. I am love. I am my own divinity. This is the trip wired truth we were programed never to find. Any one experiencing similar? :-) What interesting times we live in.