Hi All! Been experiencing a great deal of density, heaviness and anxiety over the last 4-5 days and the topic of boundaries seems to be back up for me at every turn. I have become aware of my tendency to allow my energy to be shape shifted by the energy of others and the underlying sense of lack that is creating that situation. That sense of lack then creates a situation where I both attract and create those situations/relationships that would run over my boundaries.

The idea that I need to maintain better boundaries feels complicated to me. On one hand, if the sense of lack and willingness to take on other's projections is caught in every moment and instead I tune into my own sense of self and wholeness, then boundaries will evolve naturally...as a way of being. On the other hand, I see myself now getting a bit tight about boundaries and being overly protective of what's coming in. Finding a balance here is tricky...not letting the mind be the guide for what is allowed and what is not. There seems there is a distinction between creating imposed limits on others/on self behavior/feelings/actions and feeling for what is aligned in the moment...I suppose I just don't feel that clearly yet, so instead the mind is stepping in to create the boundaries...whereas action coming from the soul would not be predictable or fall into a "don't cross this line" feel.

When the anxiety and feeling of others being up underneath my skin occurs and I feel to strengthen my own relative sense of "me-ness" - essentially edging people off what feels like an encroachment, how can I know when I am simply holding my own shape and when I am limiting my own growth by saying "no, this is not ok" - perhaps just protecting the ego desires/needs?

Is it even possible to take on someone else's energy or is my own energy merely resonating with what is around me and dipping and lifting in response to that? And then there would be the natural flow of your own energy which has it's own flow with the distortions that occur within myself.

I keep seeing animals with a missing or broken right foot/leg - a blue heron and then a deer...and recently a shoeprint in the sky...feeling now perhaps it relates to keeping one foot in "heaven"/inside and one outside...perhaps this is all just more invitation to keep feeling me more and more deeply in every moment.

I would love some insight on this as I it feels confused!

Thank you!

Love,
Jenny