And eye-opening. It's time I faced it. Feel more ready to now. Less panic and resistance and more resignation to the very real possibilities. When I said there are no valconoes near me I was thinking of the ones abroad but conveniently forgot the ones on North America. Those would surely affect this area.

I had a dream the other night that there was a small furnace in a cupboard I had to reach up to (in my brain?), that was malfunctioning and extremely over-heated. There was this molten metal pouring down that was melting through everything. Working on the basis of fractals, I feel as though my higher self was showing me I have some internal malfunction of over-heating within. I have been feeling almost uncontrollable rage at times with thoughts of violence. It seems I have my own super valconoe within. The next morning though I pictured blowing cooling air onto the malfunction, and also applying yoga cooling breath (breathing in through curled tongue and out through nose) and it seems to have done the trick; I feel much calmer now. But maybe I need to find aligned ways to blow off the steam? I feel though that venting may just fuel the flames instead.

Meanwhile, how does one prepare for these eventualities? I feel that it's pointless and that what you say is the right orientation: To prepare internally. I've given up the plans to get fit get a job move to a slightly better place. I feel more and more deeply now that freeing soul is the right way to go. And then face what comes with equanimity of soul. Or Maya Samadhi if I make it. Either way I have to remember that something wonderful will be born of it. And starting to feel the relief of not constantly wanting to change things. Just accept what I've created in faith that it's for my highest good and freedom. Thank you again for showing us the way Open, your hard work is so appreciated.

With deep gratitude, Barb