ah I see. Oh dear I think I have talked myself out of several opportunities which have seemed like they could be difficult. I don't know if its related to what I talked about for getting to the course but last night the palpitations started up again - I have no idea why. I really felt I had got to the cause (the buffalo help thing)but last night I was just watching something on my laptop when I felt them start up. This has been something happening for me off and on for months and to be honest I feel despair now - it feels like I am sitting in a load of fear but I don't even know wht the fear is about. I have tried softening becoming one with it etc but nothing is coming up to show me where its from. I think it may be related to heat am feeling sudden flarings of heat (could be my age :)) People have commented that I had seemed much happier this last week and its because I was so much more relaxed without the palpitations happening. I really thought I had evolved out of this. Is it possible its another layer of something or I am feeling anxious due to an influx of energy or something? I don't like to ask for too much of your time I hope its okay to ask about this
blessings
Elaine