Hello again :)

this morning I woke with the impression that I was working on releasing karma between the Scottish and the English (my mum was English and my dad Orcadian/Scottish. I lay with this for a time (I think my dreams pointed to this too). Then my hands got really hot and I felt guided to put one at my throat and one on my left leg (places always had issues with) Then I began to see myself as a soldier but way back before Jacobean rebellion times - I could hear the jingling of horses equipment, could feel the fear of going to battle but also the inevitability of it as a man in those times. I then saw a woman and felt the fear and loss of her male going off to war. Then a young boy who saw it as a glorious thing and wished he could fight. Then I saw a battlefield of dead bodies the slaughter. Then a shield with a red cross on it and a warrior who prayed and seemed to have an angel of god with him or he thought he did. He thought his war righteous. Then it was a castle and I was someone looking out over the parapet but the sun was blood red and it was an ill omen that god had deserted us. I then was handed a key and it unlocked something in the castle I think and as I stepped through there was beautiful golden light and that light took me up out of my body and then I could see these were all just experiences I had had to have. I saw (it looked funny) a vehicle/machine kind of like a go kart but without wheels it hovered and this was what took me between/to the various different expierences I needed to have. I then could feel that everyone is the same everyone is here to experience whatever they need to experience. I saw Dom there (my ex/friend) and he had been getting ready to go on to the next experience also. Before the golden light I had felt abandoned , abandoned by my god/creator - up to my calves in shit. The feeling of whats going on why is it like this , what has happened. After/during the golden light there was no feeling like that - it was just that it is as it is - it felt gentle a relief that it was like something just falling off . I don't know how much of this was really past life events or if it was metaphorical. I do know that its like a remembering and the pain is only in the not being able to remember.

The fear and the palpitations have gone (haha for now).

love
Elaine