Hi Open,

Thanks for the update. I don't have memories (yet, I hope) of Sirius other than seeing a 'futuristic' cityscape. But I do remember a dream where I was looking up at the stars and was able to look very far and saw spaceships readying to flee a planet. I could feel the anxiety and uncertainty of those onboard.

I am one of those that has not been taking this shift seriously, thinking there is enough time etc. But after finally clearly seeing/feeling the negative intentions and black magic (featuring a voodoo doll) being sent to me daily since I set my boundaries, in the wrong way, with a couple of people where I live, I've been 'scared straight' as they say.

Waking up to the reality of how my energy is being stolen, my field is being abused, and my sleep and clarity are being disrupted is enough to make me finally take it 'Siriusly', to borrow your pun. I'm doing my best not to fall into self-pity and fear and be proactive instead. I'm working on finding a new home too but made some wrong choices that are most likely going to keep me here for some time longer. I realize moving won't end the attacks, but putting some distance will help and hopefully eventually I'll be forgotten. Realizing I also have intervention working on me doesn't make a move an escape, but I'll have more freedom and autonomy which will help.

I realize too though that maybe this is an initiation of sorts; I need to level up to be able to leave. That only by elevating my consciousness can I connect with the right flow that will lead me out without just landing back in the same situation somewhere else.

I am seeing the opportunity in it too; it will give me a chance to learn how to get deeper into the SGOB so as to negate the energies and attacks. I believe I was shown how little it would effect me if I was in that sweet spot. I'm thankful to know it can be done, I'm just worried it will take a long time. I continue to work on the chakras and when things are afoot staying in my own consciousness, especially the 3rd eye, but it's still hard and I can't get very deep, and my staying power is still weak. But there's nothing for it but to keep pushing through. I'm learning to be my own best friend in this as anything else is handing myself over on a silver platter. I'm purifying everything in my life as much as possible and doing what I can to keep my space clear of negative energy.

The bit from the Meister Eckhart poem keeps popping up, helping me take a higher perspective: "...the demons are really angels, helping you free yourself from your life." I do feel this. I feel I have potential, and have been shown what I can be, but I just wasn't commiting. Nothing like continuous ass-kicking to finally get me to get to work. I still feel fear and resistance at letting go, but I won't let it stop me. This is where I have to start trusting, but oh it's so hard! I have to keep reminding myself what to do as the discombobulation is affecting my short term memory.

I'm excited for the books but it will be some time before I can get them so I'm diving into the original 5gateways today. I'll need all the help I can get, but I recognize that ultimately it's me that has to do it to get there. I have to find faith in myself.

I'm more grateful to you than ever; I don't know where I'd be without you and your work. Id appreciate any advice if you feel to. Otherwise see you Saturday. Infinite gratitude, Barb🙏💙🌌