Hi Megha - a sense of worthlessness comes up a great deal on the spiritual path - I'd say most, if not all, tend to pass through this one.

Firstly, 'education' and upbringing often cause the feeling. So the education system is geared to fitting people into a particular way of living which is so often contradictory to the natural path of the soul. Indavertantly, by intimating that "you could do better" or "we do it like this", or "it would work better like that", parents, teachers and coaches are, in effect, telling you you're wrong or not good enough. Often they feel like what they're doing is an expression of love and support, BUT, it's not unconditional love.

I ask the question...

How can the soul not be good enough to be what it is? And if the journey of life is to unleash and express soul, if there's nothing else going on, how is it possible for you not to be good enough, when your soul is the very epitomy of this dynamic? And if you're unique, different from all others, then how could anyone else presuppose to be able to tell you what is 'better' or 'worse' about your soul and who you are?

BUT, there will be a truth at the heart of the distortion (in the sense of worthlessness). In my observation there always is. So an aspect of the soul (in the Openhand Philosophy the ray 3), is constantly inquiring.... "how can my beingness be more aligned in this moment and in that situation?" The ego, created by the system, translates this as, "what I'm expressing, and what I am, is not good enough".

Does this create anger? It's totally understandable if the supression of the system and its 'wrong doing' would cause that. So I advise to get right into the sense of worthlessness - express it, feel it, trace it back to its source in this lifetime, and when you can, beyond into others. If there's anger, let it well up and express. Then finally, just sit, in your own shockingly simple self acceptance of who you are in this very moment. Because it will always be good enough.

In loving support

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