Dear Open and all tuned in ,

I am expressing on this thread because for me the Torus is very real. Every single time I do any kind of breathwork or meditation I start to shake and the symbol of the spiral and I start to see visions of really beautiful grandeur . I also 'see' fantastical geometrical shapes that make more sense to me now that I follow your crop circle explorations .

The last week has been extremely intense within and without . In an earlier post I mentioned how I am feeling the pain of abandonment . I read an article that talked about abandonment and avoidance as strategies we employ in our intimate relationships and it hit home and how ! I suddenly saw how despite all the work I thought I have done that the pain of abandonment afflicts all my intimate relationships. It has been a very humbling discovery. I also discovered how and where it sits in my body. It is a sharp pain to the left of my sternum ,I can feel it energetically . I have been avoiding feeling it my entire life !

Concomitantly on the outside I have had patients with bleeding. ( This is where I was bleeding my energy into ?) . One had a condition that causes his blood cells to break ( and this despite him being tested antenatally) and the other who almost died after he bled into his scalp after a freak accident at birth. Contemplating all of this also make me feel a burning in my sacrum . And yet something has become free . Even in the relationship with my husband ,something fresh has come in and he is able to share his thoughts and feelings better .

I am still seeing pyramids everywhere. In March at a party for my friends 52nd birthday I met her friend who too one look at me and invited me I to her home for a reading . She is a witch and she also told me how I had 'called' her. I wasn't ready to meet her then ,but I may be now . Again she is feeling very Egyptian to me for some reason ( she loves Egypt !)

I felt like writing this stuff down. Now it seems pretty vague and irrelevant ,but I'm not going to edit it at all.

Reflections always welcome !

Megha