As always, I tend to begin with that words are just the useless tool to express the depth of experiences I have encountered during this Divinicus retreat. But I will try to use this tool to, foremost, express my endless and sincere gratitude to Open and Openhand Team for such a fantastic given opportunity to experience what we experienced last week.

In a very nutshell, as we peel off the layers of density times again and again for me this retreat that took place in an incredible venue in the mountains of Wales is something like a completion of another cycle of falling into abyss of darkness and meeting eye to eye with my own shadow and rising back again on wings of the pure sense of divinity of my own being and touching once again the frequencies of the Soul and of the Higher Dimensions. I was (and still am) bathing in the sweet and subtle feeling of the intimacy with my soul’s frequencies upwelling from the very deep sense of timelessness within my heart. It's just utterly indescribable…

To be caressed in hugs of the true nature's elementals there couldn’t be any better environment to jump naked into the stream of Divine Trust, to break down the remnants of an ego in a heat of the Hell with a taste of Darkness, letting the woods of oak trees to dry tears of expressed Emotions and then surrender to the lightness of the wind being blown all the way upwards to touch the Higher Dimensions.

For sure, the Maya Samadhi meditation has 'crowned' my all spiritual experience so far. It seems that I already tasted a sense of the effect of this tremendous meditation with my post-retreat experience. To me it was so perfectly right to stay for couple more days around that sacred location where Cae Mabon gem is hidden in the woods at the lake surrounded by mountains. As experiences of my own Divinicus being were really transcendent and far above all imaginable expectations the next day after our fantastic group did farewell there was an understandable need of grounding high vibrational energies. So, I was guided by my intuition to take myself on a walk in the mountains and quite unexpectedly have reached the summit of Snowdon. Interestingly this was exactly the day when skies appeared to be clear enough (usually the peak of the mountain is hidden in a cloud) for having a breath-taking view from the summit of Snowdon.

Even though after more than seven hours of being fully present in a physical body (because of the intensive climbing and then coming down, which isn't easier than climbing up as my knees were already tired and sore after good three hours of walking up the mountain) it felt not just rewarding but also speaking in a language of Universe with some meaning... Moreover, the synchronicity was speaking incredibly – while climbing up every time I stopped for a few minutes to take breath and relax my legs the bumble bee appeared out of nowhere (there are no flowers in these mountains at this time) and was making one-two circles around me as close to my body as just few centimetres and disappeared again. The last time this bumble bee “visited” me was when I reached the summit, then it disappeared and didn’t show up anymore. It spoke to me about some protection and encouragement to trust, also the persistence…

On Sunday as was driving back home to south England I have picked the route of most amazing roads all the way through Wales from the north to the south. Roads and lanes were coiling like a snake, left and right, up and down, through the steep slopes and rises bringing me through the most spectacular sceneries of hills and valleys of the Wales. Most of the time my car seemed to be only one on the road and I soaked in the fresh and thick greenness of the hills and woods which became more and more close to my sense of beingness until I found myself in a sense of ‘driving’ not the car but the life itself. Again, very difficult to put it into words, but there was a feeling like I am moving within the ‘tube of space’ and flowing within that surrounding greenness and the greenness was flowing through me. All dissolved and became one… There was no separation left. Until… I found myself being led by the sat nav across the city of Bristol! It was already late dark night time and I could not believe that I didn’t even realised having set up to drive through the middle of city (my least favourite environment to be). Having the sense that I am driving through the very centre of Bristol it felt very dense and I was constantly softening within repeatedly assuring myself it’s okay, welcome back to the 3D world - we are here to express our Divinicus too . Suddenly I asked my inner guidance for a help: ‘Please take me out of here as soon as possible’ while understanding I still have to drive it through. The next thing that happened instantly was that all traffic lights from that moment on started turning on the green light as I was approaching each of them (at least ten and maybe more). I was literally driving without stopping anymore as if continued flowing within that ‘green tube’. Here I remembered the similar story that Open was telling and I smiled!

I woke up this morning in my Divinicus feeling, looking through the window – all the same outside, but I feel something is different. I feel as if I just came down from the heavens… And there is always the question within – what and how am I doing next? (Giving the time for integration, of course)

With Love

Asya