I am wondering if anyone might be able to shed some light on this.

i would say im hovering around gateway 2 with spontaneous processing of karma happening occasionally.

One thing that i know needs to be brought to light for me, is that i get completely overwhelmed by what i feel is "other peoples" energy. As i am naturally empathic and the word boundary has no meaning to me, i easily tune to others vibration, regardless of whether i want to or not, which is very unempowering...i have shut down as much as i can, but even this dosent stop it.

The only coping method i have is solitude or to keep moving so i dont spend too long with people. While i can bounce back from some interactions ok, longer periods with some people that have lower vibrations, or even short periods with those with a dense vibration in them that i naturally pick up on, can completely exhaust me to the point where i feel like i will pass out.

If i am in a situation where i cant get away from this, a fuzzy haze comes over me like i am in a bubble of white noise (that is actually grey/dull orange), its not pleasant, its like a balloon of fuzz that sits above me, well, from my nose up actually, its about 1.5 metres high, it makes it very hard for my mind to function, i feel pressure outside my head pushing in on it, it wants to go in me, but i dont know how to let it out again.. it overwhelms me and although i can observe it, i have no idea what to do with it. If youve ever been in a sensory deprivation tank, its like i am in one of those ... it isnt pleasant but its not scary, sometimes tears will come up ...this thing can only be described as greyness that wants to go in thru my head

If anyone was at the walking the path course last november, this happened to me there and it renders me in a very odd state...i cant do much of anything, especially try and get my mind to form sentences and use my mouth to describe it! i just sit there blankly feeling overwhelmed and watching it....at the moment, the only tactic i have is to wait for it to pass...

I assume the only way to address this, is to bring it to light by going deep into this sense of complete and utter overwhelm in response to it. While this thing is not inside of me, my response of overwhelm is. I get that i need to surrender to something completely and let it eat me alive (whilst staying the observer) and hopefully i will come out the other end knowing that i am not it..

i think beyond the overwhelm there might be a sense of powerlessness ...im concerned the further i go into the response of overwhelm powerlessness and exhaustion, the stronger this cloud will be in its intensity and the more exhausted i will become and then it can overcome me.

chris wrote in the description of gateway 2

"There's the soul majority - the higher soul (loosely higher self) - like a huge balloon outside of the body 'above' the crown. The lower soul (loosely lower self) is fragmented within the body and therefore greatly diluted by the bodymind's activities and impulses".

This sounds similar to what i am witnessing too, so i am very confused...what if its my soul and im denying it, but what if its not my soul and i let this thing in me and it takes over!

im not sure if anyone will really be able to "answer" this email, but any info would be most helpful :)