Thank you Open - I wrote something yesterday and then deleted it because it just wasn't expressing well. What I wrote about was there being a feeling of self-delusion and for certain the mind keeps latching onto concepts that support the sense that there is nothing I can do to free myself and that what is in the unconscious is so vast and driving things that there will never be full consciousness (but who is the I in this?). Perhaps there is truth in this - as the identity doesn't gain anything. This confusion itself seems to be created as a means to limit oneself/keep oneself safe.

At the same time, I have witnessed an issue around the capacity to meet the world - fully step into it- this has been worked on very intensely the last four years...many cycles of unravelling different layers of protection in the subconscious. Now, it feels as though I am stepping into it in very concrete ways and the fear is quite big that I will fail, but I am willing to step forward and experience that if needed. These subconscious patterns seem to be layered and at the core, I presume is the core karmic wound - which means there really needs to be full commitment to confronting the limitation because at least in this situation there are many active protectors or guards of the core wound. Of course the driver is the soul which carries a sense of freedom and possibility.

You wrote today about the Spiritual Imposter and this feels like part of what I am working with. It sounds like you are saying that the imposter will support the subconscious patterns to protect the ego from a confrontation in certain areas. It also sounds like the imposter gets hooked on a distortion of concepts that also have a truth in them. It seems to me now that there is also a friction created by these experiences that distracts attention away from the real issue and brings attention into focusing on an intellectual concept that has no exits...just spinning in circles.

There is also a contemplation around how often the identity is just learning to behave a certain way… learn better communication… have more awareness of the various identities and how they impact the way life is filtered and created… how often are we just dancing between various identities - perhaps experiencing more harmony through smaller-self improvement/development but yet still in control on a level…where is the soul guiding this and where is it just identity playing with ways of being on 3D level in a way that brings more pleasant outcomes....perhaps it's both. For example I have felt impulse toward bringing greater consciousness into language - finding language that truly expresses what is felt and enhances connectivity. This could be owned by identity and can also be how the soul is bringing expression into greater alignment.

This has been very helpful and invites a continued and deepened exploration.