This video could not have come at a better time. As I unravel this deep thick density that is this life, reminders of deep hurt pertaining to lack of love have presented themselves. Just a few days ago, on Thanksgiving Day, my heart was hit with a swift and forceful blow as I was reminded of my feeling of lack in the 'motherly love' scenario. The barriers and walls that my ego has built up to protect itself now have a whole in them and if I go 'in' I may be able to knock them down completely and allow soul/spirit to shine through. This hurt is so intense and a reminder of childhood pain that I've recoiled twice now and stopped the flow. Its hard expressing through when the pain is so weighted down. This pain needs a hug and I haven't found a physical hug that will suffice. It would be wonderful if the Openhand community could send some love and encouragement my way as I work to process this. Thank you all for thinking of me. :) With love,
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