Hey Katie & M (and all reading) I'm not at all surprised you don't feel Gaia as a 'mother' - clearly you're from other constellations and have soul family there. Although I'm not from this place either, at times I do feel a reflection of a 'mother' - but that's because she birthed the human body that I now find myself in. So it's more a historical issue, and only a slight essence. And a truly cosmic soul would find the notion of 'father' 'mother' and other similar fixed-essence relationships just way too limiting. So, M, of course you know you chose to be here. I would say the 'why?' is buried within this question you asked..."I do not know how to work with her and remain myself." In higher, authentic creation, it is not the answer that creates, but the question itself. The question leads to exploration for the purpose of evolutionary growth. How can you be so constrained physically, and yet not be constrained as a soul? And as to why Gaia created all of this, "why did she allow it to happen?" Because of her own karma and that of the consensus consciousness she's a part of. Although I do believe she's no processed that and has no need of this reality anymore. Which is why it's unwinding.... Namaste Open