I'm finding after meditation I carry what feels like a human ache - if I were to put words around it they would be 'truly what am I doing here - on planet', 'why am I still here', 'this doesn't feel like home to me at all', 'I try to connect but I'm deeply out of place here'. Even though I feel and am partly aware of the answers to the words - the ache persists. It's not a matrixy ache - it's kind of like a galactic ache?
Submitted by someone on 28 September, 2011 - 13:15
I have a question. There's a saying about something like "the blind man is leading the blind..."...
There are many blind guides, but those who follow them do that because they want to stay blind, because they choose to. There are many, who stay blind even with the seeing guide, while those who want to see, will find assistance even with the blind one. And
I am a new user and recently watched the Openhand 5 gateways documentary.
I have been exploring spirituality for some time now, in my teens (somewhat misguidedly), in my early twenties and now in my thirties. Recently I have felt the pull, the shift that drew me toward the first gateway but I do not seem to be able to pass through due to anxiety about my past.
I have been married for a number of years. While the journey of our married life has not been without challenges, our relationship remains strong.
However, I am currently experiencing a very strong attraction for another woman. In normal circumstances, maybe I could just walk away from this - but the problem is that it is in a work environment, we may be working together closely for a few more months, and walking away is not straight forward.
Is there anything I can do with this strong sexual energy? e.g. to transform it into something else?
I have an eye condition, it's medically termed 'Intermittent strabismus'. Basically when I look at things, sometimes two of my eyes don't look in the same direction (my right eye, the more short sighted weaker eye will turn right to look in a different direction). It's intermittent so it doesn't happen all the time, when it does happen I can consciously adjust my eye so they focus again. But often I'm not really aware how my eyes look, I can give people the impression that I'm not really looking at them when I talk to them.
My son asked me a really interesting question, which was so telepathic and attuned to what I could sense around me... He asked me " If my friend was on the other side i.e in heaven, how could he also (simultaneously) be here on earth in a different body with a new life''?
This is a question that I have thought and thought about for so long. Why is it that I would feel my friends reincarnation on earth in a new body, yet simulatnoeously still have communications with him and feel him now and again, not like I did.
I would like to hear people’s thoughts on these two (related?) things…
I’ve encountered a number of people on their spiritual path, and practising meditations etc. who disconnect with the world around them and from other people too.
I have noticed two different manifestations of this -
One is a kind of bewilderment by the world around. Every small thing disturbs them. They become rather intolerant. A symptom maybe of hyper-sensitivity.