The challenge I'm facing nowadays is discerning whether the thoughts, ideas, and impulses I have towards certain directions are aligned or not. How would I know if it's coming from the soul or some kind of energy that wants to take me down blind alleyways? A few weeks before, I was quite inspired by an artist, and then some ideas were formed to express myself in a particular way. It elicited some energy in me, which was almost uncontrollable. It felt good, as I was excited and passionate about it, yet it was clearly attached to a particular outcome and did not allow me to be at ease with it. But then I asked what the truth was in it and I got it was expressing playfulness through it and I realized I could express that within the current situation I was in. The energy dissipated within a few days, and I couldn't feel it at all. In many ways, I'm relieved that I didn't run off to make a quick decision behind that impulse.

Today I had a similar experience of a direction being generated in my mind as visions, and there was a strong sense of desire and excitement with it. Are these not the qualities of the soul? So there's every reason to believe this is a truthful impulse, and I'm supposed to follow it. But following up with it posed a great challenge to my mind, which quickly became over-questioning and feeling unsupported, etc. I had two funny synchronicities later: as I was walking with my partner, I saw a guy wearing a helmet that had a question mark in it, which was pointing to the distortions of over-questioning. A man was plucking oranges, and two oranges fell and rolled towards us, and he asked us to have them. The universe doesn't support what the ego needs, but it supports what we need to realize.

So now the energy has already changed and is taking me in a different direction, which feels much more aligned. It has a sense of passion but an ease to it as well. So I'm working with this level of uncertainty where the mind is invited to be fluid and not crystalize on any particular thing.

My way of dealing with this challenge is to take gentle steps with the visions and ideas and see if they want to flow or not. I'm not sure if its related to the above topic, but I welcome reflections.

Vimal