5D Shift How to Align yourself with the Universal Flow

Submitted by Open on Sun, 03/06/2016 - 07:20


It's clear the mainstream of humanity is becoming increasingly dissatisfied, and dis-eased as the seeming relentless struggle to control life and the planet's dwindling resources rolls on. Fortunately, a growing group of people are turning away from this mechanised madness by finding love, peace and fulfilment within. It's all about recgonising oneself as part of the greater whole and flowing with that, inside yourself. Understanding how the microcosym of your life fits within the greater macrocosym leads to a sublime way of being. You find the mystical 'nirvana', inside yourself. Here's how...

Infinite Creative Potential Exists Inside You

I put it to you, that the universe exploded into being and unleashed flows of consciousness, like ripples on a pond (which people call the 'big-bang). It was done without intention - or else who had the intention and where did the 'creator' come from? It just happened. And that creative potential still exists inside of you. It is who you are.

When you let go of the need to control life, the release steadily unwinds you, taking you on a Journey of Enlightenment where ultimately you become the One, inside of yourself; you lose attachment to identity, it feels like no one is here. The divine paradox is, that in touching this void of nothingness, you simultaneously realise the infinite potential of the One - the unlimited creative possibility that caused the bigbang. Your soul then writes a story - a flow - which is uniquely yours.

The Journey of Enlightenment

This 'Enlightenment' is not the end of the story. It is only the beginning of the authentic one. You then begin to recognise sense of purpose, unveiled as divine service to the whole.

It is only when you let go the life you thought you were creating, the real work and the real service comes gloriously into view.

So how do you live that here and now? How do unfold your real life-story? It helps to recognise the bigger universal flow, how it's moving, and to become an active part in that.

You are a Divine Paradox

In this big explosion of consciousness - the bigbang - you have essentially two contrasting flows creating relativity: one outwards forming the multiplicity of separation consciousness, and the other inwards, reconnecting with the source - like the undertow on a pond. These relativistic flows, create the miraculous awareness of life experience. However, in many places, unity consciousness gets stuck within the separation consciousness creating eddy currents. It's where the universe becomes convoluted and distorted. The Law of Attraction draws streams of Unity Consciousness - as souls - into these convolutions.

You are a divine paradox: the infinite potential of the One, and at the same time, a streaming experience of the One - a unique soul.

The Universal Torus

Science and spirituality are now beginning to converge on a working model of the universe called "The Torus". Essentially the bigbang is now drawing into a form of interrelating flows of consciousness - a good depiction of which is contained in the video below. Consider the blue light as Unity Consciousness and the golden as Separation Consciousness.

One ways to appreciate the Torus in it's outer form, would be as a continually vibrating and pulsing apple - a "Big Apple"! This Torus possesses the Void of the One - infinite potential running down through the core. Rotating torsional force flows into the Void.

Naturally working to unravel discord

Within this depiction, souls are streams of the flowing light. But the Torus is not yet fully formed. It's not yet perfected with balanced harmony in all places. That's where you and I come in. Where the soul is not self-realised - not realising of the One 'Torus' Self - identities are created. These identities cause friction and disharmony in the flow, felt within us as pain, frustration, tightness, anger, worry, fear etc, etc, etc.

I put it to you, that the universe, of it's own natural accord, by it's own natural mechanism, is working to unravel that. The energies are working towards a balanced torus - harmony in all places, what some call 'nirvana'.

Here is a depiction of the torus with both the microcosym of a man (connecting through the chakras) into the macrocosym of the universal torus...

Coming into Universal Alignment

I put it to you that you will be most aligned, most in the flow, and most within internal harmony, when you're aligned with this macrocosym - it's an entirely natural movement back to the core - Ascension - which just feels 'right'.

One way to experience this movement Torus of energy, is to keep opening the chakras to allow this universal consciousness to flow into and through you. Then to observe its 'pull' guiding you through life. It's so sophisticated, you can even experience it walking through town, or even the supermarket - because the flow exists everywhere!

What I observe, is that if there's any separation from this, an identity forms, which then hurts! But if that which is separate - ego - lets go and chooses to flow with the mainstream of one's soul, you ultimately come into alignment with the entirety, inside yourself. And it feels simply 'right'.

A Spiritual Compass

Did I say it was easy? Easy it is not! That's why it's extremely useful to have a 'compass' to align you with your soul - your unique flow within the Torus. The process Openway is designed to bring you into this alignment:
It naturally causes that which is separate in you, to realign with the mainstream of your soul, and with that, the universal torus. And you can live that way in every single choice that you make, leading to nirvana within.

In loving support

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The drawing streams of unity consciousness as souls into convolutions seemingly diverts the natural flow (of it coming inwards reconnecting with source). Then more and more souls are diverted or feed into the distorted stream (illusionary reality) thus increasing the momentum simultaneously attracting more souls. When each awakens from the illusion, stands within their truth (found through living their individual story without identification) then connection back to the one can flow through. The momentum slows from just one altering their perception. In addition, the feeling of infinite potential creates the dissolution/existence of all/nothing. This is what I have felt. Thank you for the spiritual compass. It's ironic how before I had words of knowledge related to any of this, I followed my heart and was true to my inner guidance and it all happened so naturally yet I felt pretty banged up by it all, the feelings were so intense. Now, having a few tools to utilize -- it is calmer to shift in and out of or to slide across the bridge.
Much love,
Erica

I don't post very often, and I'm not always the most organized writer, so forgive me. The reason I'm posting now, is an experience that has touched the depths of my soul. I wanted to share it in hopes that someone may have had a similar experience, or maybe some insight to mine. If not, then that's okay to :)

Last nights dream:
I was at the home of my employer with what co-worker. I don't know who the other person was, I couldn't see a face. ( I think now, it might be me) We were getting ready to settle in and put things away. They have a son, and he needed help with his shoes, first a type of sandal, but then I saw laces, couldn't decide what they were, but I helped him with them and played with him until his mother returned. He was very happy little boy.

She returned and thanked me for looking after him. She then showed us around and where to find what we needed to feel at home then she was gone. I vaguely remember her saying more, but I cannot recall it.

I remember seeing the Ocean outside the window, and next I'm on an over-sized airbed, floating. We had drifted away from the shore. The waves were really high, and I kept seeing glimpses of a light on the dock in and out from the waves. I turned my head to look behind me and could see a huge wave, I could also hear and feel rumbling below me and knew I was being pulled further and further away, and I couldn't stop it. I felt the air leaving the float, this is when I woke in the dream, I kept hollering above the sound for the person with me to wake up, and tried repeatedly to move my hand, to grab her arm and wake her. I stayed paralyzed through this part of the dream. I thought the waves would soak us and we'd drown, but, I felt no water, no sinking. Just the constant rise and fall of my body and sinking into a surreal peacefulness and calm, I stopped trying to move and talk. The ocean wasn't angry and there was no storm, just darkness of night, sound, and movement on the water. I do remember looking down at myself when I stopped trying to move, I was wearing a long linen gown, it wasn't quite white, an eggshell color. I don't recall anything else in the dream.

Feelings from the dream after waking: I made coffee and went to sit on my patio, I sat on the ground and watched the clouds going by and the sunrise. The wind was blowing the leaves on the trees, and I recalled the dream. I realized that the person I was with, was me. I was letting go of what I have come to trust and depend on, I just let go. My fear left and what remained was motion and vibration, both feeling and sound and for some reason, the linen gown and the boys shoes, I think I was supposed to know something about them, but it's lost. I think I'm ready. I could be over analyzing, but I feel refreshed and an uncontrollable pull for more. The meditation for Ascension of Gaia was perfect today, felt so right after the dream!

Thank you Openhand,
Janeen

That's brilliant Janeen - and of course everything you dreamed was a mataphor for what is to come and indications of your role in it - "tieing up shoelaces" - helping those that need a little guidance.

As always with these things though, the exact interpretation is unimportant - work to not over-analyse. Instead work to integrate the feelings they activate.

Namaste

Open *give_rose*

Hello traveling souls,

My path has taken me through the darkest places in life, too close to death. Everything was always an effort before, but I now I am beginning to understand. I was very impatient, and didnt learn the importance of stopping to listen and observe my body and surroundings. I didnt know how to love, what it was and what it means. I have not awoken into a state of enlightenment, though I would like to share some words of wisdom.

Let every moment be. Surrender at will to each second and let go of control. We are all awake in every moment, though some are not aware. Stop, look, wait, listen, breathe in and let go. You will see how to follow the good feeling in your heart. If you are unsure, wait some more and trust deep within yourself, that your heart will light up the way. See the meaning behind the matter all around you, listen to what it is teaching you. Discover spontaneous opportunities, have fun, create, be different, take a chance, embrace the thoughts and moments which light up your day. Let your heart sing aloud.

Sending to all with love and enlightened journeys ahead,

Jess.

Hey everyone in the Openhand worldwide community - how's it flowing for you?

I'm flowing back from Oz right now, after another wonderful Paradigm Shift gathering in Byron Bay. It's back to the bustle of the matrix, but I don't mind. As long as we focus with attentive awareness, the flow will always guide us through.

That's what I'm finding increasingly these days - the consciousness is shifting and unwinding from the old karmic construct, weaving it's way toward the New Paradigm. It's still not easy for sure, but it is getting more straightforward and I'm finding our manifestations increasingly supported. Now is the time to catch the higher dimensional wave - woohoo!

So what experiences are you having of the flow right now?

Do share a snapshot, and I'll happily offer a reflection.

Sending a big bundle of love out to you all in the Shift!

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Hey there Open and all those following along!

I am exploring the sense that I am or will be a disappointment...it seems to be at the root of some fears around sharing more comfortably with others and having deeper more fulfilling relationships. I feel this pressure and expectation around encounters.  It's almost as though I assume I will disappoint in some way and so find myself over-efforting to "prove myself" or placing the focus on the other person to avoid the feeling of what seems like shame. As I say that I remember when I was six and got in trouble for hitting a boy with my jacket...the principal of the school said to me "I am so ashamed of you" - that really stuck with me. So strange to recall being the "bad kid" that friends' parents didn't want their child playing with. I realize I have always carried this innate feeling that there is something essentially wrong about me. At the same time, I know there is not.  I don't feel sucked into this as who I am - but see it's impacts on how I am being. 

There is some sense of being a "bad" or "dark" person...I don't know where that's coming from...though there is also the sense that I have misguided, mislead or manipulated people in the past. 

Anyways - just some threads that are coming up lately! <3 

Dear Jen,

What came up for me strongly was a sense that there was an important task you were sent to do and you couldnt do it . That you have been carrying the sense of shame and disappointment in yourself ,of essentially being in the wrong ,from Sirius. I could be of course totally projecting something inside of me onto you so do let me know if that resonates at all . 

For me this resonates totally as I am also forever straining to do my best in all facets of life. I suppose there is a distortion of energy that would automatically move toward the highest form ,if I just got the hell out of the way and stopped trying and efforting so much . As you have pointed out to me many times ,that is definitely an unwinding of that needed in me . 

Lots of love ❤️❤️❤️

Megha 

Hi Jen - great to hear from you. For me, what came through seemed to be about connection and community - reflective of the Sirius connection?

"Manipulation" stood out - sometimes there can be a fine boundary between the ray 4, where we're working to coordinate and bring people together, which then slips into manipulation where a personal agenda takes over and motivates the action. I've seen the "Black Snake" energy play on this a lot.

As you know, the ray 4 can be hugely beneficial in coordinating people and bringing something to fruition. So how might you find the aligned aspect of that and apply it, whilst keening watching for the personal agenda?

A tricky one for sure, but then you're well used to these complex inner dynamics!

There with you.

Open Heart

 

Hey Megha and Open,

 Thank you so much for taking the time to share your insights and reflections. The mention of Sirius tends to take me into a place where there is no feeling - like a blankness.

I had a dream last night that I was tempted into union with a manipulative energy - there was a draw toward it and I walked very close to the fire on that experience as it offered me a sense of power or specialness...but I did manage to pull away from it. Later in the dream I was bleeding from the womb and couldn't stop it.  I feel like I have been drawn into these energies before...seduced by what it offered me and bleeding energy - giving my power away.  Lately I have noticed how this manipulative energy shows up in more subtle forms. I see it sometimes with how I relate to my kids and within intimate relationships...the tendency to apply some subtle form of emotional manipulation like inducing empathy or guilt...it's a bit sickening to see this energy and how it operates within. 

The other day as I was contemplating all of this shame/sense of disappointment, I was walking a big loop around a lake and a black snake slithered in the grass next to me - alarming the senses and stirring me back into the physical in a more full way. It's disturbance was actually helpful as it alerted me to the fact that I had reached the place I had began - I had come full circle. I often find the snake to be a helper to me - always showing up and rattling my consciousness.  

I can see the correlation with the Ray 4...and I can also see the personal agendas...It's fascinating and disturbing to see how subtle little plays on words or energetic posturing can affect and push a particular outcome and how automated these programs have become. 

I wonder what this all has to do with the sense of feeling challenged to share in deeper and more fulfilling relationship (which points back internally)...if there is any need to manipulate then there is a lack of trust and filters over honest expression....lots to contemplate and explore!

Thanks you guys for giving me more to chew on!

With love,

Jen

 

Keep digging Jen - what a tremendous exploration.

I can really empathise with what you're experiencing. There are reflections in my own journey. As you know I do a lot of travelling - I feel given to as a part of the larger mission. It's incredibly challenging because I witness how often the world's transport system is simply overloaded and creeking (I'm writing this from a creaky bus on my way back from Oz!). There's a powerful dialogue I've been having around the 'importance' of the mission, and angling energies to find a speedy, direct passage through. So I call on 'dragon' energy, which I see as aligned snake energy (or at least related to it). It helps speed a pathway through airports and along motorways, it makes good connections, finds the right places to eat and cosy places to pause. The contemplation is that in a world of people, for me to benefit, someone else seems to lose out - but then antoher perspective is ideally we all fit within the cogs of interlocking wheels. So how to connect up the flow without controlling it? That's a big one! It is tending to work, but it's a fine razors edge to be clear there's no manipulation going on - just holding things clicking into place. At least that's the ideal!

Of course it will test us all at the deepest levels.

The contemplation of dragon energy seems to help a great deal. Maybe a contemplation of it can help you.

Much love

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Wow Open! So fascinating as I dreamt last night that I was being moved through space on the back of a snake! Multiple ones actually...where one would drop off the next one would pick up.

At the same time, my son came to me in the middle of the night with a cramp in his right leg and saying "it feels like there is a snake wrapped around my leg and squeezing it" ....perhaps illustrating the dynamics of this aligned and maligned energy. 

Recently I have felt drawn to keep two small dragons in a special place where I hold sessions and meditate.  It's new I am not clear on the whole thing, but my daughter was giving them away and I felt to keep them.  Anyway, it's poignant what you shared...and clearly I am being invited to explore and contemplate this more. 

One big area I seem to get controlling around is efficiency...so it's funny you mention travel...I am finding I have a great degree of impatience when it comes to what I judge as (or discern as?) unnecessary hold ups - I find myself saying - couldn't this work differently? All that needs to happen is.....and this is where I then end up inserting my agenda and manipulating the course of things. I wonder how it would be if I just asked the question and then could pull myself off of my needs and ideas for how to make it happen..something to play with for sure!

Thanks so much for the reflections! <3

Hi Jen, Open, Megha.

Dear Jen - you feel like a soul sister to me. Every time you share something it’s like you’re writing an excerpt from my own life.

The dark side, yes, I know it well - too well. And it knows me, my power. The power which I’m desperately trying to bury, so I will not be tempted to misuse it again. The line is so thin, it’s but a sheer almost transparent veil, so easily crossed. From early childhood I also had this feeling that there was something essentially wrong with me. That I was bad somehow. When I was 3, I asked my mother if I was a witch. I’m so glad my mother remembers this, because it’s proven to be a clue into a past life that’s emerging for me now - as a witch! (And no, NOT the good kind)

Open, I have so much to tell you that relates to this past life experience, but I need some time to put it all together. The clues started dropping during the Intensive in Köln and keep coming...

Your dream, Jen - so powerful! The bleeding from the womb that you describe hits me like a punch in the gut. Reminding me of all my miscarriages. Sometimes feeling cursed. Unexpected uncontrollable bleeding from the source of life. Unable to hold on to it. Life and death blending together in my own body. I also had a dream a few months ago. I had just had a major breakthrough, in which I realised I could rewrite the story of my entire childhood, thus creating a whole new base for my inner and outer experience. It was immensely empowering! Shortly after that I had this dream and the day after I felt I had entered a new playing field. I felt it in my entire being. I became aware of the presence of a new energy and I saw a new even bigger battle approaching. One that would require a whole different strategy than the one that had worked for me before. It was the Black Snake.

My dream:

I was between destinations, meaning I had just left a place and I was on my way home, but had been delayed and was for an unknown reason temporarily stuck in an unknown place in central Europe for a few days (sounds a lot like Köln 😄). I was staying in an apartment I didn’t recognise but was my habitat for the time being. Suddenly, I discovered my mobile phone was missing. I tried to retrace my steps, in order to find it, when I remembered I had put it in the pocket of my coat. When I went to look for it, I discovered that my coat was missing as well. It became clear to me that I hadn’t simply lost my phone. If the coat, which I hadn’t used was missing, then it had clearly been stolen, along with my mobile phone. I immediately knew this was personal and that my phone had been stolen for a reason. Without my phone, I was disconnected from everything. I couldn’t call home for help. I couldn’t check my itinerary for my flight details or other useful information that would help me get out of there. I also knew that this thief was coming for me, and stealing my phone was a way of disconnecting and disarming me before coming after me. 

Lo and behold, a mean looking man barges through the door and attacks me. He comes at me with speed and force and throws knives at me. I am able to defend myself against the knives by using my hands to divert them, but I realise I can’t do this forever, so I start to run. A long hunt begins, through all kinds of places in the unfamiliar city where we’re at.  My enemy hunts me down, and I escape. Again he hunts me down, and again I escape. Over and over in a strange never ending cat and mouse game. We’re each equally good at what we do, so none of us can beat the other. I can’t hide from him, but he can’t catch me. Eventually, I get tired of the game and I stop running. There is nowhere for me to hide, and there is no way for him to catch me, so the whole thing becomes pointless. The moment I stopped running, the whole scene changed.

Suddenly, we are in a big room with lots of other people engaged in some social gathering, a party or something. As this change happened, the energy between me and my hunter softened significantly, and suddenly he was no longer a mean looking criminal, but a regular guy, quite attractive with a soft demeanour. There is a strange and intoxicating mutual attraction between us and he begins to speak his mind. He admits that he is attracted to me and has strong feelings for me. That I am the only one out of all these people (referring to the people in the room) who could see him and understand him, and therefore he was drawn to my presence. I felt this too. I, as well, was attracted to him, because he saw me and recognised me in a way no one else seemed to. There was a strong feeling of the classical impossible romance. Two people experiencing a deep affinity for/with one another, but never being able to be together, because they each belong to two opposing sides that simply cannot merge. And as much as we both longed for the presence and recognition of the other, we both knew, he had to stay with the dark, and I had to stay with the light. But the battle between us was over, as we realised we were both longing for the same thing...

Keep exploring, Jen. I’m right there with you. I’ve been in a low and dark place lately and somehow your sharing made me feel a bit more hopeful. Thank you!

Lots of Love, ❤️

Anastasia

 

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Hi Anastasia!

Thank you for your reflections and sharings <3. Yes, I feel that connection as well...it feels like here you have expanded on the feelings I am experiencing at the moment about manipulation, being on the "dark side" - perhaps a resultant sense of shame and disappointment. I feel as though I HAVE misused power and manipulated people in this life - especially as a child...being the "ringleader" of some shady things that I don't feel good about. It always felt like a mismatch to how I was (and still am) perceived as - good, sweet, innocent.  Yes, I can honor that I have qualities that may be described this way, but this doesn't feel accurate - it only names qualities people are comfortable accepting about me (so interesting why/how I might be creating that....I wonder about self-judgement and how I cut off the more decisive, focused, influential aspects of myself....more to look at there.

Wow - such a powerful dream!  What struck me in your dream were the words "the moment I stopped running, the whole scene changed" ...how key this is!...also the dark and the light being drawn to each other and recognizing the role each plays and the common purpose...I feel a sense of immense empathy for the misunderstood and judged aspects of creation - how it reflects our own disowned aspects...those souls that have embodied the stronger distortions. 

Thanks for voicing your experiences and perspectives  - it's deeply helpful to feel heard and understood!

Much love,

Jen

Fascinating dream Anastasia,

It speaks to me of being lost between dimensions - and held there. I know it has happened to a lot of souls. But that eventually. My sense is the guy you met might well have been an aspect of yourself - and in causing you to soften, you found your way out of 'purgatory'.

At least that's how it speaks to me.

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Hi Open,

That really resonates with me. I’ve had a few visions in meditation where I experience myself as a ‘floating’ soul, hovering above Earth looking for a synthetic ‘reality’ to fit in to, but not finding a proper match. I’m also thinking about the Annunaki and their reason for being here. Remember at the Intensive when you talked about them, how sad I became? I can completely empathise with them and feel their pain, as if it was my own...

I don’t really dare to ask the question, it feels dumb somehow, but is it possible I could be one of them or been involved with their dealings somehow? Or maybe I just empathise with them so much because I recognise their predicament. I have also felt an inexplicable intense, almost heartbreaking compassion for the Orions and their lost souls.

Would you kindly tell me a bit more about this kind of ‘being lost between dimensions’. What exactly does it mean and how and why does it happen? How long can a soul be lost that way and is it because of something they have done? And how do they eventually return? What have other people been able to share about their experiences? Any knowledge you want to share would be immensely helpful.

 I told you about Sirius - after the explosion. How I was floating around in space and no one was coming to pick me up... It all seems related.

Thank you so much for your help 🙏🏻

Love,

Anastasia

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Hi Anastasia - for certain it's possible that you could have been an Annunaki soul - I've met a number here during my time.

When Sirius C exploded 120 million years ago, the population was shattered. Plenty were disconnected from the usual cycle of reincarnation and set adrift. Many souls here will contain the sense of that in their karma (for which there is no real time limit). And also then becoming a part of the controlling intervention which created a way of living and being according to its own agenda - manipulating the flow, realities and other beings for their own purposes. Plenty of souls will have been involved in this, on both sides - either manipulating or manipulated. And progressively souls from this 'drama' are finding their way back to the light due to the active reflections of benevolent beings. They're then and re-engaging with the usual cycle of reincarnation - they're embodying here in human form for healing and processing of this karma. A part of that, will be directly confronting situations that they inflicted on others or witnessing the effects of that, so as to transform those behaviourisms and forgive themselves. It's how a soul realigns.

The Sirius story is a big one within the collective karma - it comes up in people's regressions at the Openhand events all the time.

Here's an interesting clip from the Matrix, where Neo gets stuck 'between worlds' in a subway called "Mobil Avenue" - an annagram of "Limbo" - or purgatory. And in this case, it would appear that love gets him out, in the shape of his Twin Flame. One way in which people have become disconnected in this way is by losing the sense of the Twin Flame...

Wishing you well in your processing

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Hi Jen,

You said...

One big area I seem to get controlling around is efficiency...so it's funny you mention travel...I am finding I have a great degree of impatience when it comes to what I judge as (or discern as?) unnecessary hold ups.

I have a challenge around efficiency too - it happens as I relate situations to the bigger purpose - "with all this time and experience, it (the Shift) ought to all work much more eficiently!"

But then I also realise it's working to embrace as many as possible. And each has their own journey, which often means getting stuck in loops. But then whose 'mission' is more important? Aren't they all equally so? Isn't even the smallest cog essential to make the watch work? This is my inquiry about it right now.

Open Slightly Smiling

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Hey Open!

This is a BIG one for me! I can also really relate to what you shared above about Sirius..in a way that I normally don't see in myself. This weekend I am on a    family vacation in the mountains ...what I find is this sense of wanting to maximize the experience...find the way to connect all the dots so that we don't "waste" any time and get to do all the things we would like to. Plus I think it gets pretty overwhelming when three kids are asking what you we doing today and you don't at least have a loose idea. The trouble is I have difficulty staying light about the planning...I totally immerse myself in this process and get caught up in the high of my super "effectiveness" LOL!!  Meanwhile, who's to say what is really given for us to explore and experience if I am not tuning in?

All of this figuring and calculating and organizing to make the "perfect plan" and what happens? My kids find two left over cardboard boxes laying on a huge grassy hill next to the hotel parking lot and spend the next three hours "sledding" down the hill! Best fun ever. Lots to learn!! I joined in and my kids are yelling "ah mom! you feel like a kid again, right?!"  - so great! It reminds me of staying new in the moment - without need or expectation - open to a ride on a grassy hill on a makeshift sled. 

Also, this issue of running over with my agenda has been a big one in parenting...I have worked a ton on it...remembering that everyone has their own things to experience and integrate is so essential to taking my foot off the gas pedal of what I perceive as "the way"...it's really so basic and obvious ego control...but the underlying fears/lack of trust/addictive habits can make the grip pretty tight. 

Thanks for all the feedback! <3 Jen