Thank you Open for the reflection. I have been sitting in your inquiry for a few hours. As always, it creates mayhem, as my brain and body go numb trying to find where this inquiry sits in me. It creates discomfort and irritation from the idea of another deeply rooted program in which I am unaware of and attached too. Blind spots. Old wounds that still hurt when you push on them. It seems to be beyond intent, it was just a reaction. Maybe one that is still driven to serve, protect with care and honor.... ego created from, and supported by, the program? The realization of the distortion and illusion creates waves of sadness and a sense of betrayal, which I have allowed myself to be with and in. I can see the impact of holding on to the old ways of being and I feel the fear of letting go of it. It seems the sword is still in my hand..... So much realization yet to come. 💜