well done and really great point about how much energy food takes up in our lives, if we let it. being a food addict/comfort eater i think about food way too much. the anxiety part is big for me too i think b/c the whole thing with food and me is having had it withheld sometimes and when there's not much love coming from a parent it becomes a comforting substitute. anyway knowing you got past the anxiety helps to know i can too. your feeling of unreality is interesting; do you mean you're disassociating ( cant figue out spelling rn)cause that reminds when i went to the water one sunday morning with no breaky and i felt like i was in an alternate reality, more ephemeral and beautiful, it was amazing. anyway have a great journey and may the plaque exit you 😉🙏