Hi Open, thank you for the contemplations. I just finished the ascension meditation so my responses should be flowing from my expanded state of mind:

What is motivating you right now? as in what is engaging you in your relationships, jobs and general living circumstances? My motivation is to open my heart and to allow my authentic self to come forward and express. I’ve joined a Buddhist mindfulness center in order to surround myself with positive influences and like minded souls. I’m in communication with my guides and higher self and as my general living circumstances are transforming, I’m allowimg them to guide me as I navigate the transitions in my life.

2. What blockages are coming up? so when you look at all aspects of your life, specifically what disharmony are you experiencing? (which will be coming from an inner blockage)

My biggest blockages currently are fear and regret. Fear of giving up my current apartment before I’ve found a new one. Especially with the extra challenges of having a large dog and impaired credit. I keep asking my guides and higher self for guidance and they tell me I’ll be taken care of and to have trust. So I’m handing in my notice today, placing my faith in the universe that I will be taken care of. The regret comes from crossing paths this past weekend with someone from my past. The regret of what could’ve been comes from not speaking up 20 years ago at her wedding when her grandmother told me she was in love with me from the time we were kids. I was already married and had a child, but a part of my soul was shattered right then when she told me. Those feelings of regret came pouring back this past weekend. She’s still happily married and still doesn’t know what happened. I know I had to walk the path I did in order to pay a karmic debt from past lives, but it’s hard not to think about what could’ve been.

3. What is your Orientation in LIfe? In other words, what is your underlying purpose? My underlying purpose is to be my authentic self and to help others awaken. I find myself finding my voice and reaching out to others to help them on their journey. I know all of the changes I’m going through right now will help me better express myself to others.

Looking forward to your reflections.

Much love,

Scott