Thanks for sharing the journey with us!!

As I elaborated in my last post I feel at the root of my deepest wound is Idealism. In it's most pure form, perhaps there is the holding of an energy of harmony, equity, non-judgement and acceptance - a felt sense of possibility without an attachment to what happens. However life seems to not meet the ideal that I sense…whether that is on a soul level or conditioning, which concretizes it to specific outcomes. When life, myself or others have not lived up to this idealistic reality (tainted with conditioned expectations and judgements), then there is indignation, control, sense of self-righteousness, inflexiblity.

I see the ray 6 which in different moments would also express with ray 1 to harness the commitment and drive of purpose (to keep going when it feels like it is useless), the ray 2 (to soften, surrender and release the need to force, to open and feel into what is happening now), the ray 4 (to navigate each specific interaction with the greatest degree of harmony and respect for the other's reality), the ray 7 (to guide with synchronistic magic)

In the circumstances lately, I think it has been the distortions of ray 1 and 2 that have impacted the ability to be effective with ray 6 (4, 3 and 7 hahah all of it really!) ...

I notice often that this energy is noticed… “it lights up the room” in some way… I hear it from people … it’s never about intelligence or achievement… it’s what people call disposition and regardless of any identity need to do or be something more… this seems to be enough and what is responded to in a way that feels alive, real and meaningful.