Hi Vimal,

What a great inquiry. I especially liked your observation that Ra energy comes in through an internal judgment of some feelings being better than others and attachment to that.

It sounds a bit like a part of you still yearns for those feminine aspects of love - care, nurturing etc - coming from the mother wound. It's enticing to receive it from someone else, like a mother or partner, because we can surrender into it to a degree. Like taking a bath in the feminine and letting it heal you. However, it's easy to then lose sovereignty in that.

So the question is, how can you allow the feminine within you as a sovereign expression of who you are? Remember, you can integrate the feminine aspect within you AND still receive the reflection from others. The difference is there isn't a projection of it onto someone else any more.

You can also use the feminine within to help heal the masculine. For example, the compassion and acceptance of your full masculine power.

Much love

Richard