Thank you Miha for this powerful and beautiful sharing. When you said at the start that the sounds of the surname you were given at birth sounds like "whitish" - I thought how interesting as my birth names (first and last) mean white phantom (or fairy) descending. I've never put that together before.

I appreciate, very much your sharings...there is so much wisdom, experience, and insight to reflect upon here...thank you for putting it in words and the music is ahhhhhhhhh Jen

PS noticed the "42" in the center of the time on your post.