Thanks Open I immensely appreciate the encouragement and reflections 🙏 it really helps to soften the mind.

Part of me is somehow afraid that if I let go I won't be able to find natural boundaries or balance. But just now I was reminded - again - that it's not really helpful to hold onto every process, and how it can naturally unfold. For example over the years of doing inner work I naturally started sleeping less and lighter, being less unconscious at night. I could have been really attached to sleep and as the bodymind needs a bit of time to adjust and feels "tired", resist that and start taking stuff to sleep longer and deeper. Or create a spiritual identity around it and effort sleepless nights. But by letting it be without judgement it became a naturally flowing background experience, with a lot of benefits. Okay, this was relatively easy to let go and let it do it's thing. With more investment in the more complex area's of life, it can become a bit more complicated 😇

In essence there is just a yearning to experience the "sweetness of life" in a liberated and connected way.

🌸🌊

(the bug you put in the title of the comment was a really funny synchronicity for me I had a good laugh about, thank you 😆)