Hi Open and all,

I’ve noticed my identity self going through the motions of the old ways of working in the matrix. I’ve been looking for a new job and using jobs boards online which was what I’ve always done in the past and it was successful in finding new jobs over the years.
But recent experiences are highlighting that this isn’t right and won’t work anymore - the time my train lost power on the way to a job interview is a classic example. Others include being offered interviews but not being able to attend due to being out of the country and the employer refusing to reschedule. Another was needing to change an interview date but when I contacted the company, 3 emails bounced back as undeliverable.

Of the interviews I’ve attended, I’ve not been successful and have not therefore been offered the jobs.
The evidence is building, as is the feeling sense that the is approach is not aligned. I’ve been a bit stuck in the old approach, at least to a degree, going through the motions, but without any energy behind it so it’s no wonder that it’s all falling flat and ‘failing’.

It feels strange to not constantly search for a job as I would have done previously, as resources are currently a major factor in day to day life, although I’m still somehow managing.

Although it feels strange, there’s also a sense of rightness to not forcing a possibility that isn’t aligned with the being.
I don’t know where this is all going to lead and the unknown is a bit scary too but there’s a feeling that things will sort themselves out, however they’re meant to go. I’m starting to feel a level of acceptance with it all.

I will add that I had a strong reflection a few days ago of what felt like matrix energy.

As I was driving, the cars in front came to a standstill on the road ahead. I saw that a large herd of cows were being moved from one field to another. The farmers didn’t have to force them to go where they wanted the cows to go, the animals just went along with it, as a group, following one another, seemingly unconsciously. I was really struck by it.

Then, about 10 minutes further up the road, the EXACT same thing happened again. A different farm, a different herd, but again a large group of seemingly unconscious animals were being led and directed to where the farmer wanted them to go and the cows just went along with it. I felt like I was observing the matrix in action. In the past I’d likely have been highly emotional at seeing these poor sentient beings being used in the way they were but this was different - I was the observer in the entire situation.

Happy for any reflections as always.

Best wishes

Nikki
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