Reading this post makes me think:

How likely is it that my ego, sensing that it is losing control more and more, came up with the LSD idea in an attempt to stay in control during a make-believe spiritual path? Any upcoming situations could then be attributed to that choice which would create and enforce a subconscious belief that drugs should be used whenever the path is not immediately clear.

I find this an intriguing question which I shall reflect upon for a while.