Thank you, Open, for being so through. This is a lot to digest! :)

First and foremost, can you direct me to a link to more of your writing on "ray" energies? I'm not recalling them well enough, and this is definitely an important piece.

You write: "Be prepared to lose control. Be prepared to express what you might consider previously as your lower darkness. But then integrate the truthful and authentic aspect of that, peeling away the distortion that you begin to recognise in the exploration."

I think I've been doing this over last few months. I've been exploring and excavating these hard, dark places; re-living them, making better sense of them, in order to release.

I have more trouble recognizing them when they happen spontaneously, arising in daily life, but I'm working on it. I don't feel like I'm ignoring them, but often I think I just miss them (and their opportunities) by not being present enough.

In both cases, I process as best as I KNOW HOW, but I'm wondering if I'm kidding myself that I'm doing it FULLY perhaps? I have some deep behaviors that are obvious blocks for me, and I'm TRYING to confront, but they just aren't releasing. I see the truth that is presenting itself, and I try to soften into it, and I THINK I do, but it comes back around again and again still.

Being a mom of three small boys, while going through my awakening is challenging, to say the least. However, watching their behavior, specifically how they process emotion is very eye-opening, in regards to your advice. The younger two boys never "stuff" their feelings. When they're mad, they are ALL-IN, processing the emotion, and they ride it out. (I've seen a tantrum or two to prove that. LOL)

I do recognize the power in this, as it seems innate, until we are conditioned out of our natural emotional processes. My older son is changing now. He's stuffing, becoming more anxious, aware of social expectations. And I'm feeling his field change (as it becomes more contaminated).

They act as a wonderful mirror for me too.

Thank you again. This is very helpful so far.