Thank you Open - This is spot on to what I am feelng...you put it so succinctly! This piece in particular...

"But then the more you watch, the more you start to infuse into the experience - you're steadily becoming the soul through the experience." This is the link that I am feeling and that I am observing missing in the delivery of some teachings on the path (besides here!).. there is plenty of guidance to be in the observer but there isn't much talk on most spiritual paths of how that develops. So, I see and experienced personally, (before openhand) a holding onto being the observer from the place of the mind - this creates a false sense of peace - but you are above it, not in it. I know you write about this in Divinicus for sure. Why do I need to get this intellectually? The experience is speaking clearly...but it was like "ok, this has changed and how did that happen?"

Thank you for the question on questions Cynthia =). What I frequently experience is recognition of a disharmony between some currently held idea and the experience. It may be an idea that is expressed by another or by myself, but it creates a yearning inside to sort of create a pathway to connect the two - to clear the dissonance. In that, though for me, it feels important to find ways to express that in words in a way that can be understood mentally. It feels touchy here like it's very easy to get stuck in an idea that I need to find words versus expressing in being. I see the soul and ego are tangled here, it seems.

I do find that at times this process gets stuck in the mind - where I become overly analytical and start to go in loops. This exploration felt that way for me...looping. Opening, expanding and keeping the question open rather than turning in on myself is a good reminder. Thank you all for the experience! <3 Jen