I was watching a music video this morning, a not yet seen powerful version of an Ellie Goulding song that means a lot to me. It's a simple modern day song but to me such a deep expression of ancient energies: combining very beautiful (though difficult) feminine karmic threads... both light and dark aspects of what we women specifically tend to confront in our lives... The original version of the song is about love, a total self-offering and self-opening ("I left my house / Left my clothes / Door wide open / Heaven knows / You're so worth it, you are!! (…) / But I wish I could feel it all for you / I wish I could be it all for you / If I could erase the pain / Maybe you'd feel the same / I'd do it all for you / I would, I would, I would! …"). Expressing to me the melting of at least two (of many) double-faced archetypes: the Lover and the Mother. Actually, some moons ago I did have a big breakthrough in reconciling the (sacred or not so sacred) prostitute energy with the mother energy... They are often thought of as opposing, but in fact the Whore in Her Full Light Power is actually very similar to the Sustaining, Nourishing Mother Energy, they resonate in each other's depths... A True Whore, as long as in her Sacred Priestess nature, compassionate, self sacrificing, self opening, a channel for the masculine to ascend, cannot possibly do anything else as to offer her body, her womb and breasts, just like a supportive, embracing, containing, self-offering mother does. It is compulsive and pure. (Of course both the lover and the mother have their dark sides... a Lover can be a cheap whore, a seductress, a hungry ghost, and a mother can be possessive, devouring, driven by a suction-vacuum energy...) These energies want to come out clean in the present world. To shred the distortions, the shadow. It is a very important part of Feminine Sacred Healing work of today. They desperately want to be expressed, but often they cannot because there is so much suppression, taboo and dirt, guilt, pornography, judgement, etc, etc, brought into them by the world we live in. When the Sacred Priestess opens herself, it's almost always a very difficult situation in today's world as the majority of people forgot, actually, probably never have been shown, the untainted flow of these energies. And the evolutionary work they do. And this is where Kali comes into play. Oh, isn't she just so pissed off! Now, Kalí too has her shadow and light energy, she can destroy (HAS to destroy from time to time) and she can heal with a piercing power energy that brings one through this mess, this laziness, this distortion, this mud... It's not against anyone else, it is the Sword that cuts the crap, inside and out. And in this new version of this video... Ellie Goulding lets out her sadness, frustration, desperation, her impatience at how things are sooo slow to change. In the last minute of the song she really sings her heart out... She really lets out her special brew of Kalí. She is still soft(ish) but like a volcano.... It's a song she's been singing for almost 10 years. I can empathise with how she is angry. Impatient. How she stepped into her Kalí, and not to become destructive but to (as she says) "erase the pain". – She sings: "It's time to come clean And make sense of everything It's time that we found out who we are..." Helen talks about Self Love, I feel it is about self-respect... a stepping into the channel, standing into the energy of who we really are... Catherine and Katie join up with Kalí, and feel the strength and the noble anger... And oh, just how much these are all so interrelated. We don't have to be channels for it all, not always... But for the times we are, for the times when we choose to step into it, here are the words of a modern day Tantrika, her passionate cry out to the (both internalised and externally present) masculine: It's time to find out Who We Are. I wish I could feel it all for you I wish I could do it all for you! If I could, I would do it for you... I would do it for you... I would do it all for you. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9G9sR1CL3U4 3 R