Oh Tigger, this is beyond words!! Heart wrenching... Thank you for sharing!

This sticks out: "I sob but no tears come. I sob big heavy, gut wrenching sounds, but no water."

Today a pregnant woman came to see me for consultation. With her second child. Her first birth was violated... Though she reached full dilation in very good tempo, the doctors lost patience at that point, forced her to push instead of waiting for the bearing down reflex, then forced her to lie on her back, tied her feet up, and when the baby (frightened) did not engage properly, they pushed her out, pressing full force on her belly, using suction, resulting in tearing her pelvic floor up and all the way up both ways her side vaginal muscles, broke her coccyx, she couldn't sit for two months and had no sex with her husband for a year.

She's expecting in a month. It took me four hours (two hours yoga, bodywork and another two hours of listening, hugging) to get with her to the point when her pain got released into tears at last...

Otherwise for the past three years she's been like a bottomless pit of silent dry pain...

This is where we're starting from.

Thank you for your story and empathy for the animals, makes me feel I'm not alone in situations like this.