It's pretty much impossible to live in what I call a "muggle" society. It is pure torture. When you say everything you need will come to you while I believe that, it is still scary. Because of such pain and soul suffering my husband is about to quit his job at which point we will have no income and yet we still have bills to pay. We have done this before and it is not easy. We've been somewhat homeless a few times living life like this and it makes us outcasts of society. The pain is greater than the fear. The fear the comfort. Sometimes I ask why me? On this path but I understand. We are deciding in the next few weeks.