Hey my friend roommate,
Felt drawn to respond to your sharing about the confusion/struggle you are experiencing - adding to the above comments - and see what resonates with you. I’m only describing my experience with animals, though it also applies to GMOs, toxicity etc.
Having communicated with you I feel strongly your commitment and passion to the 'spiritual path', to 'evolving' and 'raising your vibration'. I am with you! My understanding is that 'to evolve' is an opening of heartfull wisdom (being softly aware), which breaks down the rigid, constricted chains of culture, tradition, society and 'human' condition. In doing so, we awaken to the beauty of inter-beingnes with all life - We exist in love with all creatures and the Earth, all the time. I know you are feeling this with your animals. In other words, it is the breaking free from the problem-solving mind (small mind), which is a survival mechanism that operates within the Illusion/construct/lower reality (whatever you want to call it). Perceiving, for example, animals as commodities and objects to be used, eaten etc is itself a learnt cultural construct that is created and sustained by fear: the fear of pain, sorrow and remorse in seeing ourselves as interconnected with all life! This is the ultimate fear – the fear of pain, so we endeavour to be something (healthy, unhealthy, accomplished, successful etc tec even spiritual!) to mask the pain.
Fear is not an illusion in the reality we are living. It’s everywhere and that’s why we are struggling with confusion such as you described – all of us do! For example, fear-based dietary plans, fear-based practices, behaviours, new year resolutions, you name it! When we become sensitively aware of how/when/where fear manifests, we can clearly feel that every time we eat, wear, drink, etc anything that has come from an animal's exploited and murdered - as it were - body we ingest/consume/align with their fear, hopelessness and desperation. A fear we have caused and therefore we reap. Similarly, we exploit and abuse the Earth by creating GMOs, toxicity, contamination etc etc. It always comes back to us because we are all one at the level of the absolute/Source reality (we are all of the Source). We don’t exist separate from everything else – we are one with all creatures in Truth and in Fear.
Fear is driving this reality and in our practice we commit to renouncing fear by feeling the repressed pain (paradoxically!) and aligning with right action. Animals and the Earth are also evolving with us – we are helping each other!

Thanks for reading,

Love you,

aspasia