Jen you describe my situation perfectly!!!! I am in the same place. I have decided to not seek knowledge but let life experiences and the creative power of the Universe guide me. This is a balancing act to say the least. Attuning to the subtle inner "pull" and feeling what wants to come up. Then asking "show me" and trying to have the patience to let life shape as it needs to. Acting when it feels right and not doing too much or too little. Watching, witnessing, being.... Namaste Eddie