Hello Mystique. The key is to go right into the experience you're having. "Being numb to everything and hollow" - this is the karma to work with. When you soften deep into the numbness without needing to change it, then if there are implants, that's where you'll find them.

If it's an uphill climb, then let it be an uphill climb, BUT, without loading that with judgment. It is what it is.

If you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, stop looking. Embrace absolutely completely the situation you now find yourself in. Surrender. Accept. Feel right in.

There comes a point where you explode the myth that it is.

It does sound like post Sirius Karma to me.

Wishing you well

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