Anatoly,

I just saw your post and felt a lot while reading it... Some impressions were around: abandonment, barren, withdrawn, cut-off, apathy, empty/dry desert. The strong red elements reminded me of the woman in a red dress from the movie Matrix, She is there to distract Neo from what is really going on. This might just be some of my own associations... but I feel like sharing that too.

Also, I like how you express. It speaks to me. There is familiar energy behind your words.

With love.

Margaret