Hi Sallie - so nice to see you here

I had to laugh when you said...

At one stage I felt very strongly that this is what I had chosen to do in this lifetime, to be a channel to cleanse humanity of accumulated "crap", (yes, my thoughts and physical feelings during these periods do feel as though I'm wading through shit).

Join the club! There's plenty of us who feel similar - including Marije, who synchronistically posted at the same time. I get the sense too that you have powerful facilitation gifts - being able to work the field (maybe you guys should connect privately?). There's actually an art to 'hoovering up the shit' - a way of channeling it through you, and plenty of people are here to do that.

You also said...

other thoughts came in - who are you to think so grandly?why in that case are you so unloving towards/dismissive of other people in everyday life?

With this kind of gift, the soul is going to be discerning - there's only sense in clearing someone's field where it's going to make a real difference - where they're committed to change themselves. Otherwise the sh** simply returns and the effort is wasted.

I also find that when just about anyone comes into my field, if I connect with them, my energy starts to activate their field. This can be incredibly demanding. Which is why I tend to be quite reclusive when I'm not working - or else I hang out with people who get it (and understand me). It's essential to have strong, but flexible boundaries - ones that can open up to be, and work, with someone where it might bear fruit. But for the boundary to naturally retract where not. For me, having peeled away any sense of 'should do' or 'obliged to do', I find the boundaries shape and change entirely naturally - it's not something I control. So maybe that's a reflection that can help you.

Sending love and support

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