OK here goes my stuff. I find that when I'm in some particular kind of creative expression I tend to think how it will be reciecwd in the outer world. I'm also quick to compare when I see an authentic reflection. The tightness that creates is in the solar plexus. Honestly I feel sick and tired of having to confront the same tightness and same process over and over again. What can I not accept. I can't accept that I can't express freely and and that I'm stuck. The answer I got was that it's not the expression itself that matters but the process. I also have to say this particular expressions are the one that I believe that I'm good at. Good in the sense of how it appears as entertaining etc. Maybe also I'm holding a value of what is good and what is not. These expressions also has generated a particular response which I have valued in the past. I also wish to say I have expressed beyond the limited confines of my ego(who!) where there was a deeper purpose and flow supported by synchronicity.