The honesty is crucial Gwyn - therein, there is no fraud!

Two things pop out...

I want dad to pay me and get out of the way with parenting. I want freedom to be myself at all times

Freedom is freedom, it doesn't depend on any condition, circumstance or thing. Drop back into it and come from there.

Secondly...

when anything is presented to me as an adventure or fun or an exploration, I will dive into this with such joy. When presented with the 3D messy and ugliness of immature relationships, deceit and fraud, there is NO joy.

Why does there need to be joy in the 3D messy? Let go of the need for joy. Sometimes there's a need for grit, and it's not joyful.

Work to drop back into awesome okayness, and embrace different soul ray configurations that come through for different moments - seek not to judge those different states that come up. Accept you created the conditions to let them come through.

Open 🙏