Hi Barb - firstly I feel for you, and honour the challenges you're facing ❤️

Use of something like MJ every now and then is unlikely to be a problem. However where one is always "medicating" with something, then it's likely to be, from what you describe, because you're holding stress and trauma in the inner layers. The only way to get rid of this is to confront it, activate it, and ask, "what am I attached to in life that makes me react like this?"

There's clearly a lot of emotional attachment around relationships where you're probably taking on the burden of others.

How much do you meditate?

Open 🙏