Yeah, i can feel you Eddie. I am too feeling some apprehension and at the same time a lot of excitement as it gets closer to Bruges trip. Being the only financial supporter in the family adds some spice to it but i am learning to trust the universe will provide with necessary resources as my journey unfolds. My spiritual journey got a boost at the time of my personal relationship challenges which felt at times like going through burning gates. I am very grateful that at the same time i was reading Openhand books which helped me with the process confronting and dealing with the challenges. Strangely, but being in the middle of the storm i also felt more alive and connected to my soul as if i could feel the sweetness of it. Now, I am not looking for a storm but ready for it (or at least that's what i think and feel). With Love, Anatoly.