Hi Amber, Thanks for sharing - I distinctly remember the process that happens to you from the Five Gateways course you came on. I should also say that the Five Gateways is a roadmap - a model - and that each will have their own journey in relation to that. It was (and is) clear to me that you are a 'star soul'. That you've incarnated here from elsewhere in the cosmos. As such the 'rules' can be slightly different. Although the road-map still applies in essence. What I've observed in a number of star souls is that they tend to be quite awake right from the beginning of their incarnation. And they tend to have difficulty embodying. So their centre of consciousness tends to be in the balloon I described above the crown. And their journey is to infuse down into the body. Whereas for other souls, the first part of the journey at least is the other way around. A typical thing for such a soul, is that sometimes they'll be in the body, but just as soon as energetic disharmony happens, they'll pop straight up and out of the body - as is happening to you. Some star souls will appear very connected, but not at all grounded or embodied. But something else is going on here too, which makes it even more complex. You actually provide the answer encoded in your own words (we always do - we just have to learn to intuit the code)...

• "this thing can only be described as greyness that wants to go in thru my head"

The 'greyness' (the greys) your soul is referring to is Opposing Consciousness. They have created a kind of synthetic energy frequency within the field that feels sort of blissful and draws souls up and out of the body. There is a kind of magnetic attraction to it. It means they're more easily able to manipulate the being exactly because the soul is less embodied - less present. That's why it kind of feels good, let you also know that its not aligned and does not serve your journey. So the question is "how to work with it?" Essentially the journey is still the same. It's about exploring the boundaries of your truth in every moment. Your key is to work to be comfortable with being here and present in all of your interactions - to embody but also to feel the boundaries so that you don't get overwhelmed. It will require constant attention and practice - exactly what is required to walk the path through Gateway 2. So now that you're aware of it, there's the invitation to keep right on doing it. I would also question whether it is right for you to withdraw from society completely. Actually I'd say a regular connection to society and people within it would be a big part of this stage. That daily confrontation is likely to be of great service - although uncomfortable. This can also be balanced by time alone or in greater seclusion. The path is not about avoiding what pushes our buttons - quite the opposite. It's about a thorough exploration of those situations.