Great question Yulia. Yes I've experienced similar. The paradox is the path. That's exactly where the path is to be found - within the grey areas of feeling. That's where the expansion possibility is. I'd say you're being invited to work with the ebb and flow harmony of Ray 1 Warrior and Ray 2 divine feminine surrender. There's surrender, but surrender is not the same as acceptance of anything goes. This is a realisation for many. So when we surrender (ray 2), an impulse will arise to 'do something'. There's then invited a full commitment to the unfolding path, without owning it or being owned by it or denying it. Hope this helps!