Hi Jetster,

It's really nice to read your sharing, thank you for sharing your vulnerability.

Re the Five Gateways, the new book and remastered dvd will be released at the beginning of September. I think that Open is referring you to the book above. It's got much more content than the last edition and no doubt will be of enormous benefit to many. I'm really looking forward to getting my hands on a copy.

I agree that living from the soul can be challenging, though it can also bring great joy and fulfilment and when you step on the path as you are doing there becomes no other way to live (for me at least) - how awesome and exciting :dance:

You use the phrase 'explore your own consciousness" - great, I would say to watch your consciousness, become the observer of it. Rather than trying to intellectualise it, you could to be open and surrender to how you feel and what you notice in the moment. It also might be useful to engage in activities that really inspire you, what makes your heart sing - see this thread for inspiration https://www.openhandweb.org/what_stirs_your_soul

With blessings for your unfolding journey, Fiona