Keep digging Jen - what a tremendous exploration.

I can really empathise with what you're experiencing. There are reflections in my own journey. As you know I do a lot of travelling - I feel given to as a part of the larger mission. It's incredibly challenging because I witness how often the world's transport system is simply overloaded and creeking (I'm writing this from a creaky bus on my way back from Oz!). There's a powerful dialogue I've been having around the 'importance' of the mission, and angling energies to find a speedy, direct passage through. So I call on 'dragon' energy, which I see as aligned snake energy (or at least related to it). It helps speed a pathway through airports and along motorways, it makes good connections, finds the right places to eat and cosy places to pause. The contemplation is that in a world of people, for me to benefit, someone else seems to lose out - but then antoher perspective is ideally we all fit within the cogs of interlocking wheels. So how to connect up the flow without controlling it? That's a big one! It is tending to work, but it's a fine razors edge to be clear there's no manipulation going on - just holding things clicking into place. At least that's the ideal!

Of course it will test us all at the deepest levels.

The contemplation of dragon energy seems to help a great deal. Maybe a contemplation of it can help you.

Much love

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