Crystal - it's not the place, nor is it ever 'them out there'. It's not OC and it's not darkness. It's all YOU! What you experience are merely the reflections of what you're being. To me it feels like at the moment, you're not accepting the reality you've created. So try to accept the situation more, work to become awesomely okay in it. Become purely present in it, just as we did on the Breakthrough Course - it worked for you then. You did really great. *OK*

After you've done that, look for the positive threads of growth, of higher being, of authentic lightness of feeling - in amongst it all. But whilst you do this, don't expect or need the density to go away - it just is. It's just there. Paradoxically, when you really can accept the density, that's when it will increasingly move more easily.

Wishing you well, you can breakthrough the feelings.

Open :-)