Wow Jen this is a powerful unfolding - we touch so much when we really delve into those seemingly miniscule blind spots!

It's clear you've touched a karmic past life, possibly from some kind of control system that's removed individual motivation - Sirius perhaps?

The great thing is you're processing deep into it. I'd suggest exploring into the true sense of surrender - the feeling of openness and what that's like.

Do share as it unfolds for you.

Sending love

Open