The posts from this week are really striking a chord with me-it is uncanny! First of all I am on holiday in L Gomera-next to La Palma-with my mum! After an amazing first day, on day 2 I found myself feeling uncharacteristically uncomfortable uptight hittable and under a sustained onslaught of negative grumpy thoughts-and a constant anxious feeling in my solar plexus area. Grrr! I have been feeling pretty capable of surfing my emotions and thoughts pretty consistently for a while now-even with quite a lot of ups and downs in my life. I put it down to being in close company with family members who I love dearly, but in whose company I guess I feel a pull to be my old self with old issues and old thought patterns and tendencies-that when Im on my own I don't have-I am my new evolving self! So I have been looking at this week as an opportunity for development. It was really useful to read the post this week about aliens and energy implants etc. I have an open mind about what could be going on-experientially i can imagine there is something else in my consciousness field... I can become as nothing in the field (almost like I turn sideways and become invisible) and this has brought relief from the negativeness, and I have had a much better day since practicing this. Sometimes it does feel like there is something clinging on inside me-a feeling of denseness i can feel when I do a body scan-reaching right down from my solar plexus rooting down into my pelvic area somehow. When I have gotten upset about something it has felt like a whirlwind -like it has become alive and gets bigger and powerful under certain circumstances. Aliens or long lasting anxiety-I really don't know. I hope it goes one day! I will keep practicing mindfulness and Openhand techniques. Im very interested to hear people's thoughts about dealing with family members when evolving and changing as we are doing. I love them and don't want to leave them behind, and they are accepting of me and my changes, though there are ingrained pattens-most likely in my own brain-that are activated in their company. I spent the first half of my life running away from my family and avoiding them... Its only been in the last few years that I have returned to spend time with them. It feels right. I think developing and resolving these relationships is part of my path. I think this week has just stirred the pot and given me some things to work on. And if Open is right about entities being present in the Canary Islands-maybe I got a dose of them as well. I am in a village right inside a great big old volcano crater!